Why you might not be as productive as you could be

We all struggle with this problem. Our arms sometimes can’t reach the wind-up key in our backs to propel ourselves forward. We find ourselves in a rut. We ask ourselves, “Why can’t I be productive?”

Why you might not be as productive as you could be

Of course there are many answers on the web that make a lot of sense. For example, I definitely have perfectionist tendencies. Worrying something won’t be perfect, I don’t bother to start. But the other day, I reached a conclusion about some thoughts I’ve been having for quite a long time.

I always had a complex relationship with time and the concept of “wasting time.” I grew up believing that this or that was a waste of time. I came to this conclusion that time is some precious currency that I must never squander. Of course, what ends up happening is that I’m so scared of wasting time on something that I end up wasting time anyway… by not doingย anything.

While I always knew that was a problem with me, I was able to tighten up this idea in a different sense. I noticed a few days ago that I was overcome with a feeling of guilt when I wanted to do something that I thought or knew wouldn’t give any results or have any purpose. Guilt is an emotion I struggle with a lot. And productivity is a word that is quite troublesome.

I knew I had more “urgent” or “important” things to do. For example, sitting down to plan out and write blog posts topped my priority list. However, I started feeling like things like these, even though I enjoyed them, became tasks. And who wants to do tasks? I wanted to do something else, like dreamily type out a novel or sketch a portrait. However, the former is a long-term project and the latter is not something I want to pursue professionally. These projects and hobbies then become things I feel guilty for pursuing or doing, like I’m wasting time when there are other “more important” things to do. Is ignoring an errand to draw out a doodle “productive”? I tell myself, “No, I must do this errand,” then waste away dreading it.

It’s a harmful cycle. And I came to the conclusion that the key is to indulge in those hobbies or activities. They feel like such wastes of time, but they’re not–they’re forms of self-care, and self-care is never a waste of time. They say you can’t pour from an empty cup, and that’s what I become after tackling task after task and putting all my other interests to the side–even though this interests encompass who I am. It’s as if I’m rejecting these other parts of me, and that’s why I end up feeling incomplete–too incomplete to pull myself together to tackle anything else. I am a creative writer. I am an artist. I’m a creative person all-around.

I have to indulge my creative self. Even if there is no end result or anything to gain. Even though I never end up completing a novel, I will never complete one if I won’t let myself even try again. I won’t sell any portraits, but I’ve drawn since I could pick up a pencil. I’m no piano virtuoso (Asian genes, you have failed me!) but I like banging away at the keys to some of my favorite Joe Hisaishi soundtracks.

The key is to indulge these “minor” and “trivial” tasks, no matter what other people say. I get self-conscious about looking like I’m wasting time or idling away. I feel like I’m judged. Even if I tried to explain, others wouldn’t understand or even want to hear me out, so there’s no point.

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But there’s no point to doing nothing, either. You’re idling away, wasting away. You don’t have the energy to cross stuff off your to-do list because you’re ignoring your other list, the one of things you actually want to do. It’s the curse of the hustle life. People are obsessed with hustling, being busy, crossing things off their to-do list. Anything else feels like a waste of time.

This is counterintuitive! You will end up being more productive in the long-run by just doing something–and something you love–right now! You know you want to!

Whatever makes you happy and gives you the energy to carry on is not a waste of time. Click To Tweet

You’ll feel more productive, you’ll feel fulfilled. You don’t need any other results except that catharsis from releasing your feelings and your guilt about who you are, indulging, expressing, and being happy. Once you’re done with that, you will have more energy and motivation to tackle whatever you do have to because adulting calls for it.

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I know some people suggest tackling the big projects first, and that makes sense, but I think sometimes, you have to reward yourself by hyping yourself up first. By warming up. Sometimes, when I have writer’s block, I turn to my other blog, where I free-write without censure or much editing. Once I start, I usually can’t stop, and then I feel so inspired and energized to move onto this blog and take on a topic in a more structured format. It’s a tag team effort from my two blogs.

So if you ever feel like you need to get so much stuff done, but you really just want to suddenly make a bird house or put together a puzzle, go for it. Embrace it as some much-needed me-time rather than procrastination. Unless you do this too often for something you really don’t care about. Then that’s definitely procrastination!

Don’t say you don’t have the time to do something like building that bird house you always wanted to make for the fountain in your backyard. You know you’re going to waste that time on something else, anyway. You’re going to get nothing done because you feel too guilty to do something you want to do and feel no motivation for the things you don’t want to do. Fix one, and that’ll fix the other!

I honestly don’t know how much this makes sense but… I don’t care! Sometimes this gallant gal’s just gotta leave a letter of love to herself.

Leave your own thoughts down below!


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  1. Andrea

    July 11, 2018 at 4:03 am

    Blogging should never really become a task!
    I know some people strive to perfection, I obviously don’t because I don’t really re-read my blogs.
    I think that’s still OK (although it should be readable of course;) )

    And btw, anything that puts your mind to ease is NOT a waste of time.
    If anything, it can help you with becoming more productive!

    1. gallantly gal

      July 11, 2018 at 11:43 am

      Yes! I’m struggling to find a way to keep everything I do something that I love doing. The thing is I created this blog to help me with self-discipline because I am more lacking than I’d like in that department when it comes to writing, so I think that’s why it ends up feeling like a task. Luckily I have my other blog to kidn of balance it out. Thank you for your input ๐Ÿ˜€ I agree! That’s why I struggle with guilt so much. I think I’m always too hard on myself and my mind just wants to relax! Haha.
      Also I totally meant for this to go out at 1 PM today but it was such a pleasant surprise to wake up to see comments already! Haha. I must have made it 1 AM??

      1. Andrea

        July 11, 2018 at 11:52 am

        Wait, what is your 2nd blog? Is it on WP?!

        1. gallantly gal

          July 11, 2018 at 12:21 pm

          Yes! I think you might follow it already. Not sure. It’s enniyaya.wordpress.com ๐Ÿ™‚

          1. Andrea

            July 11, 2018 at 12:25 pm

            I wasn’t! But I just did!

          2. gallantly gal

            July 11, 2018 at 12:30 pm

            Yay ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope you like that content too!

  2. Nat

    July 11, 2018 at 12:18 pm

    I go through the same thoughts of worrying I am wasting time, especially the days I take time out to write and prepare blog posts. Some people would probably frown upon blogging as a hobby and see it as a waste of time. Just like how I can’t understand how people can be interested in watching sports (like the World Cup!) but I would never look down on someone for their likes just because I myself have no interest in it.

    1. gallantly gal

      July 11, 2018 at 12:21 pm

      Yeah! I think what hurts the most is judgment. It makes you feel so guilty about how YOU use YOUR time. I don’t know why other people act like they have a say in how your own time should be used. They should focus on their own lives. LOL I love world cup! But yeah I’m not judging other people for NOT loving it like I do. It’s all quite silly, this entitlement to what other people do with their lives.

  3. maaretta

    July 12, 2018 at 5:12 am

    One thing that also helps is that if you push yourself to do one productive thing, no matter how small, you will feel better about yourself.
    Great post!

    1. gallantly gal

      July 12, 2018 at 12:49 pm

      Haha I usually end up doing all the small unimportant things though xD and then think, “Welp guess I’m done for the day,” but I end up still feeling really unproductive hahaha. I might just hold too-high standards for myself.
      Thank you!

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